31 January 2008 (Confinement food)

~Confinement Food~
Every meal is fish and ckn.. eat till sian..
How i wish i can have a glass of ice cold orange juice man..
Feel like eating cold desserts like ice jelly, ice mango... slurpzz!!!
Still have one more week till confinement is over, but mummy says I cant totally end my confinement food.. cos im weak and she wants me to recover fully.. arrgghh..
Cannot eat seafood due to c-sec wounds.. haiz.. there goes my reunion dnr.

- My Ckn soup and red dates tea

- Her little hand

26 January 2008 (Taking care of Nini)

~Taking care of Nini~
The first nite, my mum, dad, brother and sister stayed over at my house to help us look after Nini. Everything was still ok except we have to wake up a few times at nite to feed her.
Everything started to get tougher from the second nite onwards. Due to lack of slp.. I begin to feel so fustrated.. nite time seems to be a nitemare for me. I cant let darling help me as he need to work the next day. Although my mum will be here in the day to help me, I cant always rely on her.. I kept reminding myself that I must learn to be a good mother, I must learn to be patient. But sometimes, her cries can drive me crazy.. ='(
The first time darling help to change Nini's diaper took him about 15mins, I just sit beside and watch.. keke.. not I dun wan to help.. but I'm still not confident enough. But now, I can proudly announce that I change her and feed her more than her father did. \('0')/

12 January 2008 (Home Sweet Home)

~Home Sweet Home~
Was suppose to go home on the 11th, but Nini's jaundice level is going up.. 11.7 to 12.6
Her doctor advise us to stay one more day for the phototherapy session.
I dun bear to leave her alone here.. so in the end I choose to stay with her for one more day. Seeing my neighbour packing and getting ready to go home.. I was so jealous. It was a long nite.. I cried and cried.. on one hand, i'm worried that Nini cannot go home with us tmr and on the other hand.. im so afraid to be alone.. alone in the room. I could'nt even slp.
On the 12th, i got out of my bed at abt 5am to clean up myself.. was praying hard that Nini's jaundice level will drop and go home with us today. I am waiting for her doctor to come and tell me the good news. It was a long long wait. She finally came at about 8am. She told me that from the way she look, Nini's jaundice got improvement, but still we have to wait for the test result and it shd be out at about 10am. Oh dear.. we've to wait again.
Darling and my MIL came at about 9am. At about 10.30am, the nurse came to tell us that Nini's jaundice drop to 10.8 and she can go home with us already.. YEAH!!!! I was so happy.. FINALLY...NO NEED TO STAY FOR ANOTHER NITE!! I quickly packed and change my clothes.. I told them that I'll be ready in 5mins. keke..
But the payment counter took us so long... in the end.. we left the hospital at abt 1.40pm.
My mum was at my house preparing for my lunch.
Nini is home with us. Welcome Nini!!

10 January 2008 (We have finalised on our princess name)

We have finalised on our Princess name!
Finally, we've got Gwen Gwen's chinese name finalised. =)
Her name is Liu Xinni, Gwen
We had her birth cert done at the hospital one stop counter.
After that I started to call her Nini instead of Gwen Gwen.. keke

08 January 2008 (Visiting)

Visiting
The very first person tat came to visit me at the hospital was my mum =) She was so worried abt me. (Mum is always the best!)

Then followed by darling's cousin, Ah Xiong and Eve and their 6 mth old son.

Anna and Steven came in the evening too.. they were so excited when they saw Gwen Gwen. And when she cried, they were like hot ants in the pan. LOL
Darling mocked at them.. asking them to have one their own soon.. keke

My father came soon after, he was so worried abt me when he heard im down with fever, but after seeing me, he felt relieved. He was so happy to see Gwen Gwen too, already started to talk to her.. =)

Later ard 8pm, my parents in law came, of cos they were excited to see Gwen Gwen.

09 Jan 2008
My colleuges came during their lunch time, they filled my room with warmth and laughter... im so touched! Thanks everyone.

10 Jan 2008
John and his gf also came on the 4th day of my stay.

Hampers from (Thanks everyone):

- Anna and Steven

- Ah Xiong and Eve

- Darling's 4th and 5th aunty

- Wan Tiang, Kok Chye, Ai Ling, Suan Kheng, Shah, Wilson, Yvonne, Audrey, Jenny, Thomas, Julie Jazz, Jessie, Sheela, Jason, Rosnah, Fiona, Maurice, Sophia, Christine and Sasha

- My company

07 January 2008 (My birth story)

My Birth Story

7am: Wake up to pee, cant really slp well.. was very excited.

8am: Getting more and more excited.. shd say.. getting more and more scared. Suddenly, I dun feel like going to see my gynea... dun feel like giving birth, nvr felt so scared in my life >__<, darling laugh at me and said, "Never see you so scared b4." Shit! 1pm: Time to go and see my gynea, I reluctantly drag myself to his clinic.

1.30pm: I went in and my gynea said, "Wah, baby still dun wan to come out ah?" I look at him and smile. He ask me to lie down to check if I've dilated, (It was painfull lor). He said only open 1cm. He gave me 2 choices, one is to induce and the other is to c-sec. We thought for a while and ask about the pros and cons. Seems like both the same. But I've always wanted a natural birth, so I choose to "Induce". He ask me to admit myself to the hospital at 4pm. I came out of his clinic and start calling my friends those who had been thru induce and those who had been thru c-sec.... I just wanted to hear their experience and advice. Lastly, I called Weiling(who has nvr gave birth b4), just wanted to hear her voice when im making decision.

2.30pm: Reach home, bath and get my things ready.

3.30pm: Darling said, "Lets go, Im going to see my princess soon..." Suddenly, i'm having mix feeling, I dun feel like going... and I ask him if I can wait till tmr. He said, "Of course nt.." and he start to make sarcastic remarks like, "wah.. i thought u always very brave one.. now become coward ah.." I got so fastrated and ask him to go admit himself lor. haha.. so bad ah. But.. im so scared. Finally after much persuasion... I picked up my courage and go with him.

4pm: Reach TMC, dunno y.. seems like it only takes 3 mins to reach TMC from Punggol.. wr normally it takes about 20 mins.

4.10pm: Admission done, was told to change my clothes, pee a bottle of urine for them and lie on the observation room bed.

4.15pm: Induction start... The nurse insert some tablet in me through my v, it was damn painful, really feel like giving the nurse a damn hard kick. Darling was not beside me at that time. He was told to wait at the waiting room. Then they start to put the foetus monitoring device on my tummy, supposing to monitor my contraction and baby's heartbeat.

4.30pm: Darling came in and sit beside me. Waiting game starts.

5.15pm: I was send back to my ward. Continue to wait. Felt some contraction.. but still bearable.

6pm: Had some sandwiches and milo given by the hospital. Mild contraction kicks in every 15mins.

8.30pm: Watching Bai Jia Le 3 half way, the nurse came in and told me tat they have to send me down to the observation room again.

8.40pm: Clear my bowels.

9pm: My gynea came in with 2 nurse beside him, ask me to open my leg.. i thought he was going to check if i've dilate or not.. but this time i felt more pain than b4, and then a gush feeling came from below.. then he told me he broke my water bag already. I was thinking.. "wah lao.. nvr tell me first, at least I can get prepared mah." Wah.. the pain was more painfull than my contraction.

9.30pm: The nurse keep changing the blue sheet (suppose to hold the water from my water bag) for me, she said my water bad was like reservior wor ('0'). Contraction kicks in every 5mins. And the nurses continue to monitor my dilation very hour (Tats the part i hate most).

9.45pm: My parents in law came to the hospital, but was not allowed to see me yet, they were to wait at the waiting lounge. I was so stunt when darling told me of their arrival. They must be very eager to see my princess. But darling told them to go back first and wait for his good news. =)

10.15pm: Darling and myself can hear the woman from the next bed groaning in pain.. makes both our hair stands.

08 Jan 2008

12am: Finally, i gave in and ask for epidural. I was then push to the labour ward as the epi has to be done in the labour ward. The epi was indeed a drug from heaven. It was such a relieve after the epi. woohoo.. But I shivered non stop.

1am: In the labour ward, we can both hear the ppl from next door shouting... "123 Push...." and the cries of the baby follows." Darling look at me and said, " When will be our turn ah?"

3.40am: The nurse came in and told me tat my baby's heartbeat was not in satisfaction, and my gynea wanted an emergency c-sec. They ask me to sign some form... and begin to shave me.

3.55am: Push into the operation rm.. and darling was told to change to the green suit b4 he can enter the operation rm. Wen he came in, he saw my gynea already in the mist of operating me.. He than sat down beside me and held my hand tight, I can sense his anxiousness. while the other doctor help to push my baby out.

4.14am: Our princess has arrive! Darling was so happy.. smile until i cannot see his eyes and he's busy taking pictures (At first i thought he wld faint.. bt luckly he did'nt). Wen he carried her to me.. my mind was thinking.. OMG... they are like photocopied. Then the nurse bring both darling and my princess out of the operation room. I started having side effects.. vomited b4 my gynea could sew me up and I was shivering badly. I suddenly feel like im dying.. the feeling was really bad.

5am: They push me back to my ward, on the way, I vomited again.. They took my tempreture and Im really having high fever. vomit continuously and shiver badly. I was put under observation. The nurse came in to take my tempreture and blood pressure every hour. Im not allowed to get down the bed, not allowed to eat also.

6pm: My fever subsided. I was given my first meal.. fish porridge.

11.45pm: My first step down the bed was helped by the nurse.